Reviewed in the United States on 17 January 2016
Near the beginning of those treatises, HG, you talk of Dr E removing a plastic bag from his things as you two had session, and how at first it reminded you of your past childhood experience.
I've read enough of your books to know your childhood was not good. The plastic bag thing is a new angle but guess what?
That's right, So What?
Whatever the details of that experience involved, you did survive it. Didn't you? And you survived it without having to overpower anyone to do so.
I say that because at the time, you were too young to be able to overcome such an experience.
All the same, you made your mum, or whomever used that plastic bag against you bigger than life. So big, in fact, that even today you don't feel strong enough to overcome that experience in any other way than to meet out your belated need to overpower it by any means other than to punish the rest of the entire world you encounter for what one person in your childhood did.
Honestly? That shows weakness on your part. How? Rather than face that person of your past when you were small and they were bigger than you, you choose to make innocent others pay for what you suffered rather than facing that person of your past, now that you are no longer small, and shutting them down for what THEY did.
NO ONE in your adult world, has done this to you. Why Then, do you continue to extract a pound of flesh, in a most cowardly way, from people who never harmed you in the first place?
Is it because you feel you are still too small and too weak to face the actual person who did harm you, so that instead of manning up and facing them it is just so much easier for you to go after and feel stronger than others who come into your life, so that you NEVER have to face who scared you so, when you weren't strong enough to meet them on an equal level?
Sure sounds like it.
You WILL grow old, you WILL loose your strength and your looks, and you WILL die. That is inevitable for all of us, like it or not.
Do you want people spitting on your grave? That is what you are looking to get.
Grow up. Resolve and bury the past. Stop making others pay for your disappointments. That IS truly the coward's way out.
If you were TRULY strong, you would go back, beat your past on your own, and not expect ANYONE ELSE to suffer because, poor you, you had a sorry childhood.
Think you are alone? Lots of us have had sorry childhoods. But the TRULY STRONG among us do not expect the entire rest of the world to pay for what we suffered.
You want to believe you are special. Yeah, so do the rest of us. But we know, in the final analysis, none of us get out of this alive and we'd rather have a string of living friends behind us than a string of hated enemies who WOULD be more than pleased to spit on our graves when we are gone.
And yes, some day, like all the rest of us, you, too, will be gone. You are no stronger than anyone else when it comes to The Great Equalizer we will all some day face.
So go on, tell yourself old age, weakness, and death will never touch you. Go on, and be prepared to spend your final years ALONE. For you will do that on your present path.
Go on. Nobody will care at your passing when you can no longer buy their friendship. You certainly aren't laying down any deep roots of love...just as your parents didn't do.
Is that how you want it all to end? With the rest of the world sighing in relief that you can do no more damage to the rest of us? To be GLAD your tyranny is done FOR GOOD?
Think about it. You are not special because of your childhood experiences, and you are not weak if you face them, accept them, move on, and VOW NEVER to hurt ANYONE the way you feel you were hurt.
To do that shows REAL strength. Nothing else will.
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