I chose this rating as it was my life as a child ,and a younge female.I felt every belting that Paul and the other children got. Oneof my bady sisters suffered that same sort of abuse as a 3week old babiy, because she cried one night to often, and my father threw her out of the chest of draws out the door into the passage she died instantly. Mum was told to say one of the children dropped her so it was claimed as a accidental death. We were seven survival out of 11, sometimes I wonder we were lucky. The sexual abuse that us girls received every night from the age of 4. The answer to your question could be hereditary disease as my great grandfather grandfather and father were the same sadistic molesting mongrel barstards. I am so glad that you survived this horrible ordeal. Just think how smart you are as you outsmarted your father and his sadistic attacks on you and you are still alive. My sister's and myself have a storiy to tell.