This book was not an easy read, due to the topics that it dealt with; suicide and murder of innocent children within a family. Yet I could not put this book down. The author has written with unflinching honesty, sharing details of the horrific events that led up to and happened on her 30th birthday. The descriptions of the processes of grief that she went through on her journey to healing are frank, honest, and full of realism. I found myself relating to some of the things she wrote about. Her description of the coroner's court procedures are quite thought provoking. They highlight the lack of in depth, adequate police training in the complexities of domestic violence, and how many serious cases fall through the cracks of the department of childrens services. I highly recommend this book.