Does he have any idea of how I am feeling? This should be a moment of joy, a moment that my future family is born. I wasn't thinking about how I had become pregnant at such a young age, I was thinking of my unborn child, the sweet innocent being, living because I was living.
I knew I was too young to be a mother, it was a mistake through no fault of my own, but I had grown to love my mistake, week by week as my bump grew bigger. I have grown my baby for nine months, I have bonded with it, felt it's every movement and now the baby is gone, dead inside of me.
Only earlier I had felt my baby's movements inside of me. I went to have my routine pregnancy checkup on my due date. I was just 14 years old, I didn't understand what was going on when they told me that there was a problem. They couldn't detect the baby's heartbeat. The lady doing the checkup called for a doctor. The doctor couldn't find the heartbeat either. ''I am very sorry Cordelia, your baby has died inside of you, there is nothing we can do, we will have to induce labor and you will have to deliver the baby.'' said the doctor.
Crying Silent Tears follows the struggles Cordelia faced whilst growing up, such as the death of her mother when she was just 13 years old. Cordelia lost her grandmother within a short time of her mothers death. Cordelia was sexually abused as a teenager by someone known to her and fell pregnant at 14.