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Cam Girl by [Raeder, Leah]
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“Darkly erotic…a must read” (Publishers Weekly, starred review)

From the USA TODAY bestselling author of Unteachable and Black Iris comes a new, sexy romantic suspense novel about two best friends who are torn apart by a life-shattering accident…and the secrets left behind.

Vada Bergen is broke, the black sheep of her family, and moving a thousand miles away from home for grad school, but she’s got the two things she loves most: her art and her best friend—and sometimes more—Ellis Carraway. Ellis and Vada have a friendship so consuming it’s hard to tell where one girl ends and the other begins. It’s intense. It’s a little codependent. And nothing can tear them apart.

Until an accident on an icy winter road changes everything.

Vada is left deeply scarred, both emotionally and physically. Her once-promising art career is cut short. And Ellis pulls away, unwilling to talk about that night. Everything Vada loved is gone.

She’s got nothing left to lose.

So when she meets some smooth-talking entrepreneurs who offer to set her up as a cam girl, she can’t say no. All Vada has to do is spend a couple hours each night stripping on webcam, and the “tips” come pouring in.

It’s just a kinky escape from reality until a client gets serious. “Blue” is mysterious, alluring, and more interested in Vada’s life than her body. Online, they chat intimately. Blue helps her heal. And he pays well, but he wants her all to himself. No more cam shows. It’s an easy decision: she’s starting to fall for him. But the steamier it gets, the more she craves the real man behind the keyboard. So Vada pops the question:

Can we meet IRL?

Blue agrees, on one condition. A condition that will bring back a ghost from her past.

Now Vada must confront what she’s been running from. A past full of devastating secrets—those of others and those she’s been keeping from herself…

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 3624 KB
  • Print Length: 432 pages
  • Publisher: Atria Books (3 November 2015)
  • Sold by: Simon and Schuster Digital Sales Inc (AU)
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B00UDCI124
  • Text-to-Speech: Not enabled
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  • Word Wise: Enabled
  • Enhanced Typesetting: Enabled
  • Average Customer Review: 4.0 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (3 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #172,172 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)

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Oh this book held such promise. The first chapter had me in hook, line and sinker. There’s mystery, there’s suspense and there’s messed up romance. There were parts of this book that I reread to make sure I was understanding it.
This story is interesting and engaging about a very toxic relationship. There are secrets and some horrific details to confront. I had to stop and start because the content was so frustrating to me but in turn, when I was having a break from the book, I was thinking about it. Love it when a book does that.
I really enjoyed the dynamics, the twists, the turns, the originality of the plot but I wanted to see more of Ellis’ story but I can see why it wasn’t. The author certainly has a wonderful way with words but I found it very flowery and that distracted me from the plotline, again, I think that was a prime reason of why I had to put the book down a couple of times for fear of skipping past bits. Some bits were a little slow paced due to the padding of flowery words but other parts were fast paced and had me gripped to the story.
As controversial as the topic is, I do think this a read that should be shared. As tough as it is to say, the most engaging part of the story was the prologue and author’s short piece about their own lives.
Now, as much as some aspects frustrated me, I would highly recommend this read and it’s made me want to seek out the author’s other works.
I was kindly given an ARC by Simon & Schuster Australia for my honest opinion. Receiving this book did not sway my opinion in any way.
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If you are looking for a fun, light and breezy read - Cam Girl is not for you.

If you are looking for a darker, grittier read, then keep reading.

Cam Girl had me on edge from the minute I started reading. It is not your regular love story, but at the same time, love is at the forefront of every move our leading ladies make.

Vada's future career is destroyed in a car accident. Her best friend and sometimes more Ellis was also involved in this accident.

The story is told from Vada's point of view, and it is her story of survival, grief, her struggles. But mostly I felt that it was her story of self discovery. Confused emotionally and sexually, she has a constant push/pull relationship with Ellis.

But Ellis - not sure what it was, but boy she annoyed me most of the time. She came across as whiney most of the time. I could understand her fellings at times, but still. I did not connect with her at all.

There was a bit of suspense, a bit of mystery over events and certain characters.

I enjoyed the banter between Vada and Dane - witty, sexy, fun.

I did feel that the story did drag a little bit in the later stages. Vada and Ellis went round in circles for a long time, the same argument over and over and I did start to skip those pages.

But in the end, I was happy with where the story took us. It is not a hearts and flowers kind of book, but it will suck you in.

Leah Raeder is an amazing writer, and I look forward to what she gives us next.
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By Kristy - MPBB TOP 500 REVIEWER on 5 November 2015
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Cam Girl is unlike anything we have read. Leah Raeder’s poetic and artistic view from her main character was unique. This book takes you into a different world, it's is a beautifully written story about a moment in time that not only changes one girls future but the future of two others. Her path to adjusting to this new life laid out in front of her, her road to self discovery and acceptance of who she really is. The are so many twists and turns your head will spin.

Her name is Vada and this is her story.

Vada and her best friend Ellis are close, so close they cross that line to something more. After a night out they are in a car accident, a car rear ended them, killing the other driver and leaving Vada with a severely injured arm. It was just that, an accident. But that doesn't make the guilt any easier, nor does the secret she is keeping from this night.

Vada is an artist and her future of continuing her passion has come to a halt now she doesn't have proper function of her arm. She may not physically be able to continue her passion but the imagines of artistic moments continue to flood her mind. The way she describes life, the contrast and depth she sees around her is magical. Living with such passion is torture, her outlet in life was her and now it's been taken away.

On top of all that she is struggling with her sexuality, she is attracted to both guys and girls. She's in love with Ellis but is internally being held back. She was brought up in a conservative culture by her mother, she's meant to get married to man, always thinking she would end up with a man even though she's attracted to girls. Making her in more confused about being in love with a woman. Vada has always held back with sharing just how important Ellis is to her.
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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Cam Girl 5 November 2015
By Angie - Published on Amazon.com
Format: Kindle Edition
Cam Girl is wow, and woah, and what?! It’s entertaining as well as extremely important. When it starts, Vada and Ellis have just been in a car accident where the other driver died. To say it shook them up is an understatement, and Vada’s whole world starts unraveling. She loses her (more than) best friend, the fine motor control in her right hand, her ability to draw and paint, and her general sense of self. At least until she meets Frankie who hires her on as a cam girl. It’s then that she meets Blue, who becomes more than just a client.

I almost gave Cam Girl a 4 or 4.5 because I had figured out the twists and was getting frustrated with Vada for not noticing some things. However, it’s not the twists and reveals that matter. It’s the whys. Those I definitely didn’t figure out. And why these characters are doing what they’re doing is much more interesting and important than what they’re actually doing. I know that’s very vague, but spoilers! My heart was breaking when the truths came to light.

Cam Girl has a lot going on. There’s the suspense plot revolving around what really happened the night of the accident. Vada grows close to the father of the other driver, and then he starts behaving oddly. Of course, there’s also the very complicated romance between Vada, Ellis, and Blue, as well as Vada’s struggles with her sexuality. The author goes pretty deep into a lot of issues of identity, both of gender and sexual orientation. There’s a lot of important conversations and inner monologues about both subjects. On top of all of that we also see Vada learning to live with her disability. Lots of good stuff, all handled respectfully.

Let’s talk about sex. Obviously Cam Girl is going to have sex. Mostly there’s a lot of solo sex, because that’s essentially Vada’s job. But it definitely goes beyond just touching herself for anonymous men. She does breath play! I certainly was not expecting that! That’s one kink that makes me very nervous (the studio does have an EMT on site at all times). Then there’s the sex between Vada and Ellis, which is holy hell hot. If you’re looking for sweet caresses and gentle petting, this is not that. Those girls know how to go at it!

There’s a lot to love about Cam Girl. While it’s sexy and exciting, like I said, it’s also extremely important. It’s messages are ones that we need to see more of. I know I didn’t really talk about what those are, because they are spoilers, and essential to the plot. I guess you’ll just have to read it to find out!

*Disclaimer: I received this book from the publisher through NetGalley for review. No compensation was offered or accepted.
5 of 5 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars For anyone who is questioning themselves, anyone who found peace in themselves who is looking to feel like they fit in the world 4 November 2015
By Lucas - Published on Amazon.com
It’s been about 4 hours since I put the book down, I still feel raw, restless, teary, I still feel that sting in the bridge of my nose a tell tale of my imminent ugly crying face, except is not happening, it’s just there burning.

I don’t know how this review is going to end up, I don’t know if this will be an open letter to Leah, the fantastic author, an ode to Ellis and Vada the two faces of the same coin, or if it’s going just to be an emotional rant, but I do know is that whatever this becomes will come from the place my heart and soul is right now. I don’t want it to be mechanical and detached, I’m good at that, it sort of happens when you’ve had to keep your emotions close to your chest during most of the important parts of your life.

I have to start saying I wish this book translated to spanish so I can shove it to my mom, my sister, my immediate family that spent so many years rolling their eyes at me, saying I spend too much time thinking about stuff, or most often than not, ignoring me.

“Sometimes when you absorb all the hate and cruelty meant for someone else, it gets inside you”
Since I cracked the book open (a big feat if you got it on kindle) and I read the dedication “For all the girls I’ve lost” I felt my heart tear, I didn’t have context, I thought about the girls I have loved, the girls I didn’t and the girl that was the hardest to love, myself. Am I lost to myself? I thought I had found me but apparently is hard to keep track.

“Names have power. They give contour to ideas. Lines to color inside, or to break free of.”
And then the wonderful prose, the painting analogies while creating a whole universe in my head in which my heart was being pulled and controlled by words and feelings and suddenly I was a puppet here, my entire being was consumed by the pain and horror, the relief and love, the darkness and sadness, the sense of loss, the finding of oneself, the facing of fears, the rebuilding and strengthening, the kintsugi of it all.

I wanted to tell you my story, to give another layer as to why this book is so damn important, but I think that would mess up the reading experience for someone that’ll dip their toes in the big pool of identity and sexual acceptance. So now I’ll just praise Leah’s work, because there are not enough adjectives to describe how beautiful this story is, how it twists your guts and messes with your feelings. Makes you question how you relate to the world and when a book achieves that, it’s when it’ll change history.

I recommend this book to everyone, to anyone who is questioning themselves, to anyone who found peace in themselves, to someone looking for a beautiful story, to someone who is looking to feel like they fit in the world, to you that want to enjoy an incredible story. Read this book, start a conversation, make a change.
4 of 4 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Heartbreaking and beautiful. Emotionally captivating. Thought provoking. Unique and special. 4 November 2015
By Shayna Renee's Spicy Reads - Published on Amazon.com
Format: Kindle Edition
Heartbreaking and beautiful. Emotionally captivating. Thought provoking. Unique and special.

My boundaries were pushed tonight. I was challenged, my emotions obliterated, my mind, my thoughts, just a jumbled mess. I was scared to start this book. I knew it was going to be heavy. I knew it was going to be something new for me. I even had to set it down and walk away a few times, but I’m glad I didn’t give up, because I learned a big lesson here.

If you are looking for something light and cheery, walk away right now. If you want something that will test you, something that will inevitably change your way of thinking, and something that will pull emotions you never even knew you had, CAM GIRL is your next obsession.

There were so many layers, so many surprises. I don’t think I’ve ever read a book where my mind was racing the entire time. I was making lists, crossing out names, thinking about the possible outcomes, wracking my brain and talking out loud to no one at all.

Would you believe this is my first read from this author? I know! Crazy right? I’m an emotional reader, and I’m kicking myself for not reading Leah’s work sooner. This author has crazy talent, giving us layer upon layer of topics that most people are too afraid to think of. This is a book that will evoke emotion, make people stop and think, help people to raise their voice in hopes that just one person will hear their pain, feel their struggle, and make a change.

Heartbreaking and beautiful. Emotionally captivating. Thought provoking. Unique and special. This goes without saying, but Leah is doing something great in the literary world, and I can’t wait for more people to experience it.

*Gifted copy provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review*
3 of 3 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Hauntingly Beautiful 11 November 2015
By M - Published on Amazon.com
Format: Kindle Edition
Wow. Just wow. Leah Raeder's third release Cam Girl is powerful and hauntingly beautiful. "Love is love." When I read this book, I didn't really know what to expect. As I read Cam Girl, that message reverberated in my mind. I knew Leah Raeders books are usually deep and likely strike a chord for some. The writing is powerful and I found myself highlighting lines from nearly every page. My only suggestion to readers is to go into this with an open heart and mind. Try not to open the book with preconceived notions and you'll likely appreciate what a masterpiece it is.

As with all of Raeder's books, Cam Girl offers an insightful perspective that resonates deeply. Leah's evocative and poetic prose draws you in and leaves you utterly spellbound. One of the reasons I've never been disappointed with Raeder is the writing although dark at times, it's an honest account of powerful emotions that many people experience, yet few are brave enough to acknowledge. For some, Raeder's books may be seen as controversial, but they are nonetheless captivating. I'm glad there is a writer out here that can connect not only with the LGBTQ community, but she is an author whose voice can transcend gender and sexuality and force people to take a hard look at themselves as well as their perception of others.

There is a raw and painful undercurrent that forces you to think, forces you to feel, forces you to connect with these characters. Leah Raeder's writing often gives you a bit of a harsh yet plausible reality check and you're usually left stunned. I read this book in one sitting and could not put it down. I knew from Black Iris and Leah's hilarious tweets that Cam Girl would be different and it definitely was. I stopped thinking in terms of gender and just read about these characters who loved, hurt, and clung to each other for support and hope. It was a poignant reminder of how far we still have to go. I don't make a habit of reading reviews about books I read, but I came across a few that made me wonder if these characters were heterosexual would the ratings have been a bit higher? I'll leave that to you to decide. For me this was a wonderful book. Every character was connected to some piece of Leah's puzzle and by the end you may figure it out as I did, but the way things unravel is always the prize. I implore you to also read the acknowledgments. They always give you bit more of who Leah is and what struggles helped created this amazing author. As with all of Raeder's books, if you really pay attention, you'll learn something. Highly recommend this to all readers.
3 of 3 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Put Cam Girl on Your Must-Read List!! Beautiful, Heartbreaking and Lyrical 9 November 2015
By Ellen (Book Bellas) - Published on Amazon.com
Format: Kindle Edition Verified Purchase
I can't quite put into words the beauty, heartbreak, emotions and sensuality of this book. Of course, Leah Raeder has a gift with words, that was evident from Unteachable and Black Iris. But Cam Girl took so many twists and turns that my head (and my heart) were left reeling.

A book about love, acceptance, sexuality and I think also friendship and loyalty, Cam Girl is one of my favorite books of the year. There is a rawness to Ms. Raeder's writing that is addictive and very real and very challenging. Vada and Ellis kept me constantly guessing, constantly on edge and ultimately, left me with a much deeper understanding of the human condition.

Vada is an artist who has become unable to draw like she had in the past. She is forced to drop out of grad school. But she never stops thinking like an artist and seeing the world through a artist's eyes.

"Art is an imperfect impression of the world. As the self is an imperfect impression of the soul."

This story is about losing love, finding love and learning to love yourself. I highlighted so many parts of this book, that I can't possibly pick out my favorite quotes! Vada and Ellis' journey was suspenseful, sexy and breathtaking, and I'm not revealing more of the plot other than to say read the blurb, and then dive right into this fabulous, sexy and beautifully written book. Ms. Raeder's prose is lyrical and her words come alive on the page.

"My love is savage and rapacious. It isn't content to the touch. It wants to be inside, crawl into the marrow, caress each vein until the cells are all mixed up and there is no you and me anymore, no secrets or shadows sliding between our skin."

Be prepared to be challenged. Cam Girl is not your everyday story. It is filled with unforgettable characters and a story I won't soon forget. Another must-read from Leah Raeder.